Disconnected

I'm still feeling disconnected, but I've decided that disconnected doesn't have to equal dishonesty. I can be honest about feeling withdrawn. It doesn't reflect my feelings for those around me. I love those people very much. If falling into them, and letting myself be carried for a little while would solve anything, I'd breathe a huge sigh of relief, and give myself over completely... Isn't it a shame that reality doesn't work that way?

In a strange sort of way, I think I'm learning what it means to live for today, and not some day in the future. I'm also learning that living for today means different things to different people, and that the meaning is subject to change within any given person depending on the events that lead up to every new day.