strong enough

Turns out I am strong enough... July was the begining of something new. I don't remember if my last post marked a turning point, but if not, then soon afterwards. For the past three weeks I've been able to stick to a walking routine, and I'm teaching myself about moderation. I'm learning to live a new way, or maybe I'm simply becoming reaquainted with an older set of standards.

I don't know what's different now, and yet... I do. I've been given precious gifts in some pretty unexpected places. I've been blessed with supporting souls. :) I survery my current place in life, and discover it bears little resemblence to the destination I had envisioned...


The dreams have ceased altogether... I don't know if that's a permanent state, or if I'll revisit them someday. The last dream I remember left me saddened, but I believe it also served a purpose. I needed an apology, and even though none came in reality, I discovered through a dream that my heart had already fogiven on the most basic level.


I'm unsure of my future, but I think maybe that's just the way it's supposed to be. Besides...I don't need to know how my story ends. :)