electronic memories

Retaining so much of my past on a machine that sits on my lap every day isn't always such a great thing... Damn you electronic memories. Why do you torment me so?

I so rarely blog these days. I'm afraid I just don't know what to say... I've thought about creating a new blog, an anonymous blog, but then decided I don't possess that kind of devotion. People who really blog put a lot into it, and it's just not something I can see myself doing. My original reason for blogging was to connect with friends, people I wanted to stay in touch with. All that is gone. So, I'm left wondering why I even come here. It feels pointless.

Let's see... what have I learned? I've learned that sometimes relationships blossom and sometimes they rot on the vine. I've learned that taking away the one thing a person wants most is an excellent way to clear the senses. It changes everything...for better or worse. It'll never be the same. And then I've learned that sometimes once in a lifetimes happen twice... if you're really lucky.

I've learned to enjoy solitude on my evening walks when everyone abandons me in lieu of other, more important things. In some ways it feels like going home when I'm walking the old roads. I breathe it in, and feel tears spring to my eyes... a cleansing of the soul... A time to accept what is, and what will never be. A time to be thankful for all this beautiful world around me. A time to reflect on what's important, and what needs to be released. A time to send up a prayer of thanks for those who encourage, and love me every day... I have been blessed in so many, sometimes unexpected ways. :)

It may be a long time before I come here again... It may be tomorrow. I just don't know what this means to me anymore. Certainly not what it once did...